New Beginning

I walked a path full of darkness and pain through the fantasy of my mind, blinded by my ego and wounded emotional body. But in reality, I was paralyzed. I could do nothing, let alone create.

I'm in a relationship that shows me my wounds. It showed me the pain from the past that I projected onto its significant other. My ego tried to convince me that she was the one hurting me. But it really had nothing to do with her. I was just continuing to experience my long-forgotten emotions.

I finally decided to dive deep into that wound. I decided to be with my emotions. And although I didn't feel much of a shift at the time, it seems to me now that something has changed since then. I feel much less reactive to the things that would have previously triggered feelings of pain in me.

I see it all even more clearly now. It all started in my childhood when something happened that caused me a lot of pain. My mind started to create stories around it, even if they weren't even true, and that's how beliefs were formed. Because I couldn't deal with it at the time, I completely repressed it all to protect myself. 

But this wound still exists because it hasn't been healed. So it keeps coming back in similar situations, along with those false thoughts of betrayal and abandonment. That's why I kept experiencing long-forgotten pain without it being clear why I was feeling or behaving the way I did recently.

After a long period of pain, it's time to move on. To rise again from the abandoned floor, look up to new horizons and find your light.

I want to start focusing on what I want to achieve in life. Focus on my goals and dreams that fulfill me and give my life meaning. This also includes joining forces with my godly wife because we have the same mission, which is to share our story and inspire others.

If you are going through something similar, don't let it break you. Nothing lasts forever. No falling, no staying at the bottom, no pain. You can always get back up and move on. 

And you don't have to do it alone. There will definitely be someone who will help you heal. Someone for whom such work is a life purpose..

Or maybe you can let this artwork help you, reminding you every day how important it is to be with your emotions, not let yourself be broken by false beliefs, and start living again.