Oil painting on canvas
“What can you do to make yourself happy today?”
she asked me.
And I remained silent for a while.
I didn’t know what to answer.
It occurred to me that something was missing in my life.
Perhaps I had closed myself off from joy and for most of my life, I didn’t feel its presence.
For many years, I was too much in my head and didn’t allow myself to let go.
I also had difficulty expressing my feelings to others.
I preferred to wear a poker face as a shield to protect my vulnerability.
There were only a few situations where I unconsciously relaxed a bit, mostly during parkour training or after a few drinks.
After this conversation with the coach, I began to look for ways to bring joy back into my life.
I started listening more to my intuition, spending time in nature, and doing things to myself happy.
A little later, I learned how to experience joy and happiness whenever I choose to.
Now I can find joy and happiness within myself anytime I want.
It’s just a matter of “switching” and even though my ego sometimes resists this change, I can do it.
I started painting this image as part of a new series on connecting with our deity.
But then I saw the face for the first time and decided to leave it there.
It struck me as funny.
So I gave in and painted Joy for joy’s sake.
Now it makes me smile every time I see it.
It improves the mood of everyone in its presence and reminds us not to take life too seriously.